As I sit here I think a post-grad depression has hit me more than ever. It seems that big things are happening for so many of my friends. Engagements, weddings, babies, moving to new towns, embarking of different chapters in their lives. Don’t get me wrong, I am not jealous of people who are getting married and having kids. I have plenty of time for that at 23! But it still stings a little bit to hear about when I feel that I am stagnant as ever. Like I am just in a holding pattern. I am in this in-between phase where I know that I am working toward a change, going to PA school if all works out, but I am not there yet. This middle ground where I am working at a job that I am dissatisfied with every weekend, taking stressful classes that I see no practical use in, and having less time with my close friends and family than ever is not a fun place to be. Also in a twenty something world where everyone seems to be pairing up and finding relationships, it seems to make spending every night alone in my apartment feel even lonelier. I am so happy for my friends who are in loving relationships and finding people they enjoy sharing their lives with, but sometimes I wonder when that will happen for me. Until then I will enjoy the single life with the best gal pals a girl could ever hope for; Shelby, Melissa, Jeri, Grace, Cassie, Marybeth and Keli. I would be lost without a solid group of friends like them. I hope they know how much they mean to me and how nights spent with them are the best times of my life! I think that they are my soul mates, and offer more than any man ever could!
In the next year everything will change even more drastically with my friends moving away. I am scared for that change, but I know that without change life would be a bore. I am so excited to see where our lives take us, to remain friends with these wonderful women despite the miles apart, and it is what keeps me hanging on to these “in between” times and not taking them for granted. This summer is going to be filled with Bachelorette parties, weddings, float trips, days at the pool, wine nights, and I can’t wait for it to start. Now all we need is warm weather!